Again, I want to thank everyone whose been reading and leaving me those lovely comments. Thank you for all the 'pick me up' comments and support. So I decided that I'd share with you all what I was or am still going through. At first I wasn't so sure I wanted to share this with the whole world wide web, but I think it's okay. It's apart of me and who I am. And maybe by me sharing with yall, it will help someone out there in some sort of way. Maybe it'll make you vaule life that much more. Long story short, I was born with a disease called E-Thalassemia. Because of it, I must get blood transfusions once a month. And because of the blood transfusions, my body accumulates a lot of iron that my body cannot dispose of own its own. Therefore, if not removed, will stick to my organs and eventually stop them from working. Before the oral medication called Exjade came out, I use to have to do chelations every night to get rid of the iron. This is where I'd stick myself with a needle at night while the medication is distributed to me with a pump overnight until morning. But now they have Exjade and I no longer have to stick myself. Which is great! But the Exjade makes me nauseous and that's why I don't like to take it. I know I sound very ignorant and foolish (which I was) but I didn't think much of not taking Exjade. I figured so long as I get my blood transfusions and take the Exjade every now and then, I'm okay. But of course not. And lately, I've been feeling the affects of not taking my medication. And this led me to do a little research about E-Thalassemia and iron overload.. which led me to discover something that hit me really, really hard last week. Most people with E-Thalassemia only make it to their 4th or 5th decade in life. =( I know 40 or 50 years old seems old, but if you think about it, not really. My mother and father is older than that. So I didn't know how to take it. It felts like someone just told me I was dying tomorrow. I know that sounds a little much, but you don't know how it feels until it's you. So I told my sister and I know she was sad because obviously she didn't know either. But she asked my parents and of course they knew, but kept it from me. I'm not mad at them, I can understand why they hid it from me. So since my mom knows I know, she told me I should just drop out of school and live life. I got a little upset that she suggested that because I want to accomplish a lot of things in life and school happens to one of them. Anyway, to make this long post short, I was really sad and cried for about two straight days. Which helped because now I can talk about it without shedding a single tear. =) It's still sad to me, life's unfair, but I'm just making the best of it. 40 or 50 is really old right? =P There's still a lot of thing I can do with all the time I have left. Like this BLOG and you ladies for example! hehe Oh, I'm officially making my 21st birthday the most important birthday of all time because it marks the half point of my life. LoL. December 18th, mark your calandars ladies. hehe jk
Okay, so onto the video. I finally got around to editing and uploading the video for yall. I hope you like it. I think this look is very, very simple to do. It really defines the eye and help people like me who have small eyes appear larger.
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GOOD LUCK ON FINALS ALL!
If I don't update again before Vegas, I'll talk to yall when I get back! xoxo
